Adventures in Asexuality

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Well, I've done it.

I've come out to someone I've been chatting with, someone I've kindasortamaybe been discussing becoming involved with. And you know, it's funny - up until that moment I wasn't sure how I felt about him: if my feelings for him were favourable towards friendship or were capable of moving in a more crush-like direction.

Once I typed the words, though, it occurred to me that I would be hurt if he stopped talking to me, or stopped considering me as a potential partner, based on my asexuality. I've rejected people before, and been rejected before, and if I'm not yet attached to the person in question, my reaction is usually more along the lines of, "huh. Well, what an asshole. His loss," than "oh man, that really sucks."

I think it would really suck if I lost out with this guy.